I woke up this morning and…


At 8 weeks and 1 day, all of my pregnancy symptoms have vanished.  VANISHED.  The boobs feel normal, no queasiness, no headaches, supernose is gone and I went a whole 7 hours through the night without having to get up to pee.  My symptoms were slightly lessened yesterday and now today they have disappeared and am I completely freaked out.  I woke up MrBeep this morning and told him I thought I wasn’t pregnant anymore and cried and cried and cried.  He held me and tried to comfort me, reminded me that we don’t know for sure.  We called the RE office, but they were closed.  I guess they didn’t have any big procedures today.  I will call Monday, maybe by then I will feel better or worse.  I just can’t imagine my symptoms disappearing with twins, I thought I would be getting worse by now.  I’d much rather have my head in the toilet than feel absolutely fine.

DrGoogle is all over the place.  Some folks have had the loss of symptoms and then miscarried, others have had all symptoms disappear and then come back a few days later much worse, some have had them disappear and never return but all worked out just fine.  I can’t decide if I should relax or freak.  Statistics are all over the place, but some things seem to indicate a 20-25% chance of miscarriage after seeing a heartbeat when you are 40 years and older.  There has been no blood, no spotting and no cramping.  Part of me thinks that I just can’t be that lucky, to get to the other side, to have hope.  The other part of me wonders how they can both die in just a matter of days after the ultrasound.  I know both are possible.

Now that I have been up for a few hours my symptoms are (good/bad): 

  • mostly normal boobs with slightly sore nips/soreness could be from me mashing them to check and see if they have changed every 10 minutes
  • feeling really exhausted, needed nap/this could be from so much crying this morning
  • slightly upset stomach/feels upset more due to stress and nervousness

Somebody please tell me that I’m crazy and I need to calm down.  Somebody please tell me how your symptoms disappeared and the story turned out with a happy ending.  Somebody get me a fricking crystal ball.

29 comments on "I woke up this morning and…"

Shannon on November 14, 2009 at 4:04 PM said...

Losing symptoms is scary...its happened to me off and on for 24 hour periods and so far everything is fine.

On another note though, with my first pregnancy I felt my absolute sickest just the day before i found out baby was gone...so I don't personally think having/losing symptoms means anything.

Its tough being a pregnant infertile...its hard NOT to think the worst.

k on November 14, 2009 at 4:05 PM said...

I understand your fears, I can only imagine, and it sucks this happened over the weekend. I've read in a ton of books that symptoms can disappear for a few days an then return with a vengeance. It's just the hormones going up and down. I really hope that is the case here and its just as likely the case so hang in there and stay hopeful. I'm here hoping with you.

meinsideout on November 14, 2009 at 4:17 PM said...

You are not crazy, you have been through hell and what you are feeling is totally normal. If you look at my July and August posts, you will see at least three that say exactly what you just typed - so much so that I forced my RE and old OB to give me u/s - I just had to do what I needed to do to stay sane. It is so hard. And symptoms do come and go - like crazy - and it is normal. Mine did - and I went to the brink of crazy and sane within seconds.

Hang in there - do whatever you need to do to get through it!

the infertile breeder on November 14, 2009 at 4:36 PM said...

It's totally normal to worry, but I don't think you have a need to fear. Lots of chicks have zero symptoms when PG. It could be that you've adjusted to the last jump in hormone levels and so your symptoms subsided. They could come back with a vengeance once your levels creep up some more. I hope you feel better.. er, worse.. soon! ;-)

'Murgdan' on November 14, 2009 at 4:43 PM said...

I had a complete freak out around 8 weeks because the same thing happened to me. Sore boobs were gone..everything gone. I cried half the day. I was sure it was over. I was reassured by tons of women that symptoms come and go and I couldn't believe any of it. My boob soreness really went away around that time...and never came back...but all is well. I didn't have bad morning sickness either...and aside from a nap here and there, there was no severe exhaustion.

My symptoms coming and going didn't mean anything at all...as all is well at this point. I hope hope hope you're able to get some reassurance come Monday. Thinking of you...these waits are longer than any of them I think.

Mad Hatter on November 14, 2009 at 4:43 PM said...

Oh, poor you - what a horrible thing to happen on a weekend! I have no personal experience, but find what everyone has been writing here very reassuring. One thing I have seen people talk about in blogland is investing in a doppler so that you can hear your babies' heartbeat whenever you want - is it possible to buy one on a Sunday? XOXO Thinking of you.
Love,
Maddy

Elizabeth on November 14, 2009 at 4:49 PM said...

Hi -- delurking. That sounds so awful and frightening. I hope it's reassuring, I had almost no symptoms and the ones I did have really came and went, came and went. It was unbearable, except, of course, like all the rest of it, one gets through. (And my IVF baby turned out to be just fine no matter how much I thought, was totally sure, otherwise at times.) I hope very much that you're feeling better (worse) and that everything turns out to be good for you as well. 25% chance of a bad outcome is a 75% chance of a good outcome -- the best. Love to you,
Elizabeth

mekate on November 14, 2009 at 4:56 PM said...

Oh sweetie,
first of all, go to this post:
http://abeautifulday.blogs.com/a_beautiful_day/2004/12/when_ivf_works_.html
and then, breathe. Does your RE have an on-call number? I hate being scared and this is scary and I am so sorry for you-- sucks ass really.

Do you have a GYN? you can also call them--
nothing will make you puke faster than having a weekend ultrasound planned.

Keeping my fingers crossed for you that your nothing is temporary and that you will soon be sore breasted and barfy.
Yes, I love you That much.

XOX
hang in there, I'm asking the universe for mercy-- arms up to the sky and all that.
love,
Kate

Sunny on November 14, 2009 at 5:08 PM said...

I'm sure this is very scary, I'm so sorry! But HONESTLY, I really do not think your symptoms disappeared because you have lost both twins suddenly at the exact same time. The chance of that is very low. I know it's much easier to say from this side of the computer screen, but I have total faith that you will feel like crap very soon. Hang in there, sweetie, I hope you get your confirmation ASAP!

Lucky Jones on November 14, 2009 at 5:27 PM said...

Every day is different with pregnancy... I too am carrying twins (17w4d) and I have had days where I feel "fantastic" and I was sure my babies were gone, but they weren't. Things like dietary changes, sleep habits, stress levels effect the severity of how good or bad you feel.

If it helps at all, I have had NO boob pain or discomfort pain so far. Also, my neasua had been minimal.

Don't worry, your babies are still safe and sound :) they are fine, and it is perfectly normal to freak out!

Liv on November 14, 2009 at 5:59 PM said...

My symptoms disappeared about that time. The breasts had been so sore and weighty and then all of a sudden it was gone.

It's completely understandable to be so concerned. I'm so sorry you had a crying kind of day.

Marvy and I are praying for you guys. May all of this resolve very soon and you have some reasurance that everything is going well.

sprogblogger on November 14, 2009 at 6:13 PM said...

SO sorry you're having to deal with this stress on a day when you can't even get in to get some reassurance. Thinking of you, and hoping you're sick as a dog tomorrow. (you know I mean that in the nicest, most supportive way!)

Mrs. Gamgee on November 14, 2009 at 6:26 PM said...

Oh hon! I wish I could snap my fingers and reassure you that all will be well. Like Sunny said, it's very VERY unlikely that you lost both little monsters at the same time. I'm more inclined to think that your body is adjusting to the hormones.

All that said, I know that until you see those two little heartbeats again you will not feel like you can take a deep breath.

We are all out here, hanging on to hope (with both hands) for you... Sending prayers your way, as always.

((hugs))

Photogrl on November 14, 2009 at 7:32 PM said...

I'm sorry that you are freaking out, but I totally understand.

I hope you feel queasy soon ;)

((HUGS))

Kate on November 14, 2009 at 7:37 PM said...

Hope you can get reassurance tomorrow. I didn't have any symptoms really, other than permanent exhaustion, so I can't really comment on the coming and going side of things, but I'm pretty sure that it can be totally normal. I'm glad the other ladies could provide better advice/reassurance!

WiseGuy on November 14, 2009 at 11:45 PM said...

Symptoms going away suddenly is bound to freak you. I am sorry. All I can offer is that I know bloggers who did not feel preggers even when they were...and only u/s confirmed it to them that they were indeed.

I think you should immediately contact your OB. All in all, I hope all is well, and the symptoms come back.

Kathy said...

Delurking as well. I was newly pregnant with twins (at 40 via IVF) just over one year ago. If it is any reassurance, my symptoms also came and went but througout my HCG level was good and my babies were fine. I know how easy it is to worry and overthink things. Do go to your RE and get checked out just for your peace of mind.

Phoebe on November 15, 2009 at 7:33 AM said...

It is completely normal for your symptoms to come and go during pregnancy. It's also normal to worry, but try not to! In another day or two, you'll probably be feeling sick again. Hugs!

K on November 15, 2009 at 8:42 AM said...

Passing phase. My advice? Enjoy the hell out of that feeling while you can. You'll wonder later why you were so freaked out...

Pie on November 15, 2009 at 9:17 AM said...

Oh, I am so sorry you are stressing. Why does this happen on a weekend?? Hang in there, and while I can't speak from experience, I've read many others talk of symptoms coming and going. Hang in there!

Beautiful Mess on November 15, 2009 at 11:56 AM said...

Sending you lots of love today, sweetie.
*HUGS*

one-hit_wonder on November 15, 2009 at 3:43 PM said...

losing symptoms is so scary, i know! it happened to me - i had so few symptoms, i was convinced the baby was dead - and i'm still ok, so i hope it's the same for you. it's so hard NOT to think the worst. would you consider getting a doppler? the good ones can detect a heartbeat at 9 weeks - might be good for reassurance. mine sure helped me.

mekate on November 15, 2009 at 7:04 PM said...

Hi sweet T, are you feeling any better? which is to say, worse?
hope you are ok, you are on my mind a lot and I am wishing you the best

ox
Kate

JJ on November 15, 2009 at 7:16 PM said...

Happened to me A LOT. I know its super scary when you have them one day and then the next they are gone--but I hope it helps you to know I went through the same!

Melissa on November 15, 2009 at 7:47 PM said...

I am here via Hobbit-ish Thoughts & Rambling's Shout Out Sunday post. It's very nice to meet you and I look forward to scouring your blog! ;o)

tragicoptimist on November 15, 2009 at 8:40 PM said...

I completely freaked out right around 8 weeks when I realized that my boobs had stopped hurting and I wasn't feeling nausea. I was working at the reference desk of my library, sitting next to a student, and nearly burst out crying. I ran to the bathroom to poke my breasts as much as possible, and nothing. Things did work out for us (my daughter is now 3), but I was certain that afternoon that it was over.

It is so hard, when you've been through so much already to get pregnant, and you know just how fragile the whole thing is, to ever feel comfortable.

I hope, hope, hope that you have a similar happy ending. I could tell you to calm down, but I know that I didn't stop worrying until we were home from the hospital with my daughter.

(my word verification is sussed. I wish there were a way you could have this all sussed out right now).

jill on November 16, 2009 at 6:59 AM said...

I don't have any experience to share but I know everyone is different. I'd be freaked too but it could be completely normal. Maybe your body is getting used to the pregnant hormones much better/faster than most. I'll be thinking of you and hoping everything is still just perfect!

Kristin on November 16, 2009 at 9:54 AM said...

I won't tell you that you are crazy. Pregnancy after the struggle of IF is terrifying enough without the seesawing of symptoms that is so common. All I can say is the odds are very good that this is just a normal fluctuation. {{{Hugs}}} and good luck.

One Who Understands on November 16, 2009 at 12:49 PM said...

From what I have read and hear this happens really often. I have a friend who is pregnant with triplets who has very few symptoms, and they come and go. I totally get being scared. I would be too. Sending good vibes your way.

Thank you so much for all your love and support! I appreciate you so much.

 

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