In 24 hours I will officially be 7 weeks. In 24 hours I will finally finally be home and alone with MrBeep. Don’t get me wrong, I am glad that I was able to be there for my brother. He is doing much better and will now just need to do things to improve his health. He has stopped smoking and is now taking walks with the kids in the evening. It has been nice to see my SIL, niece and nephews. It has been great spending a few days with my grandparents and parents. It will be a treat tonight to see one of my best friend’s from 7th grade through high school. But really folks, I want to be home. I want to smell the damp earth and listen to the rain. I want to be with my wonderful MrBeep who calls me every day and texts me and makes me so happy but he is far away and it makes me crazy. I miss smiling until my face hurts, I miss laughing so much my sides ache. MrBeep took the day off and will pick me up from the airport. Yay!
In 48 hours I will be settled in at home, with all my travels washed away. I will have snuggled and snoozed with MrBeep. I will have walked in the last remnants of fall colors. I will have caught up on some film work and web stuff. I will have enjoyed a game night with my pals. I will have been able to cook a dinner in my own kitchen with my own things. My life will once again begin to return and surround me. My mind can begin to return to a place of peace from all this chaos.
In 72 hours I will have some news. I will have seen what is going on first hand. I will have some information. I am scheduled for an ultrasound at the RE office on Sunday at 2:30 p.m. They say I can call on Saturday to see if they have any openings so perhaps I can find out sooner if possible. I hope to get an appointment on Saturday, but Sunday will do. It feels like it taking so long to find out, even though it will have only been an extra week. I am getting terrified of disappointment. I am so close to starting a new path on my journey to a family of my own. I am curious and nervous and scared and excited. I hope it is good news. In less than 72 hours I will know.