Thank you all for checking on me. I am out of my routine (with my babysitters hovering) and am trying to set aside time for writing and reading and commenting. Also, I’ve been lying low for the last week or so. Skulking around and just relaxing, trying to make it to 28 weeks and I did it. I’m so happy about that. Getting through the goals you set in your mind gives such a great sense of forward momentum, that you are doing something right (even if that thing is just laying on a bed, being a lame lazyass).
My first goal was 12 weeks (I’m sure many have been there or are getting there). It went by slowly then quickly. Strange bursts of time that surprise you when viewing a calendar, then sometimes days that seem to go on forever. The next goal was 16 weeks, just because it was another month down and I could get amnio and results to help set my mind at ease. I was so fortunate to finally get good results and know that I’ve got two little grrl monsters baking away. I made my next mental goal to be 20 weeks. I had a tough and frightening time of that with the emergency cerclage, but in the end realized just how fortunate I was to have it caught just in the nick of time. The next mental goal of 24 weeks was really tough and scary. There were hospital visits and bleeding and so much time spent alone with my nightmarish thoughts. That was the worse of it all, but I got through it. It’s interesting because we all have that “24 weeks = viability” idea stuck in our heads.
DrGav once told me at 23w while I was leaving the hospital, “Traci, we have a way to go, you need to rest, be a princess on the couch. It’s against my DNA to deliver babies before 28 weeks.” My ObDoc pretty much echoed the same thing. 28 weeks was their mental goal for a minimum time for babies, not 24. I understood why they would know this so much better than me. They’ve seen the difference. I made 28 weeks my next firm goal. We got my rotating shift of babysitters and I have kept very strict to my bedrest. Last week I saw DrGav at 27w6d for an office visit, he came to my exam room dressed in scrubs, he seemed very concerned and a little grim. He let me know that I was doing fine, the cerclage was holding and the babies were looking good, although their amniotic fluid was still a little high. He told me what medicine to take to help and then he said, “OK Traci. Congratulations on making it to 28 weeks. You’re doing a great job, please keep up the good work. I’ve got to go now, wish me luck. I have to run off to deliver a baby that is only at 25 weeks.” My heart dropped into an abyss for that woman. I looked at DrGav and could tell he was genuinely sad and worried. I gave him a hug and wished him luck. He accepted the hug and squeezed my hands and he was off.
Hitting the 28 week mark has taken a great burden of despair and worry from my mind. Also much of my physical pain and crampiness has been gone for a couple of weeks. Finally another bit of encouraging news came today at my growth ultrasound. The babies measured 3 lbs 5oz and 3 lbs 6 oz. They are in the 90th percentile for growth and while some of this may be due to my gestational diabetes, a lot is also from sticking to the high protein twins diet the clinic has me on. I am still a little underweight (at 28 weeks, I have only gained about 20 lbs) but DrGav said not to worry abou6t this because the high protein and the babies size is more important than just weight gain. We also were able to see and measure the grrls practicing breathing. Each one gets the hiccups from time to time. These are all good indicators of their progress and pushes me to believe that soon this will be over and I’ll have a crazy time keeping up with crying and feeding and nappies and cuddles.
I have made my next goal 31 weeks (3 weeks away instead of 4), then 34w (DrGav’s next goal) and finally 37w (aka “full term”). I’ll take any, but I hope for all. Sending out much love to all of you watching clocks and calendars. I love to cheer when we reach milestones. WOOOOOOOOOT!